Péaaatie

she had the most amazing smile

 with eyes like sunsets. i’m falling in love, but i’m falling apart, i need to find my way back to the start, let me find my way back into your arms..

Sometimes I wonder why I’m still waiting. Sometimes I’m shaking, that’s how you make me. Sometimes I question why I’m still here. Sometimes I think I’m going crazy. Can you help me out next time?

I’m taking time from everything, just to be the girl that you want me to be.
You just seem to want me to yourself.
I can see it from your selfish place, on my own way.
Can you hear my symphony? Coming at you in the form of sympathy tonight I know it’s too late to crawl back to you, but I’m feeling so alone.
And everything about the way I do, the things I do, drives you crazy.
I don’t think he loves me, I know this for a fact.
And I’ve been going crazy since the day you left.
Does she make you feel like a king?
I know it’s too late to crawl back to you but I’m feeling so alone.
And everything about the way I do, the things I do, drives you crazy.
I don’t think he loves me, I know this for a fact.
And I’ve been going crazy, since the day you left

You seem like Mr Perfect. Why don’t you drive over and pick me up? I’ll wear my best outfit. People might compliment ourchocolate and vanilla skin and how it looks so good together mixed in. ‘Cuz without you my flavor’s a little plain and No one likes plain things.I wanna walk to your house ‘cuz you’re just up the street and seeing you in person’s so much better than my thoughts and my dreams… And you blow my mind in two hours time. and I’m so weak and unable to picture you with someone other than me.But I guess I have to.

A little trust..

would be nice, Why has everyone lost faith in me? Why do i feel like some kind of evil burdon? why do i feel like im hurting everyone?

am i not good enough for you anymore? is that it?

i love you, please dont ever let it slip your mind, even for a second.

i’d shoot myself if i ever stopped thinking about you.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

Goodbye yesterday and hello tomorrow. I need to stop thinking about the past and just move on. To be exretemely and truly honest, it’s the hardest thing in the world. But I have to try and live my life, with or without my guardian angel.No, you wouldn’t get it. For the last 9 months or so, I’ve been struggling to fight this thing that I’ve been feeling. I don’t know, it just never really went away, it’s just discrete… I guess. I mean, it fades, comes back and it turns to hate but come backs to compassion again. There are people in my life, who make me think it’s gone away, there are people who have changed my life for the better, like my amazing boyfriend jacob, but it hasn’t really left, and it hurts, but at the moment is blazing more than ever, and i just wish it would fade.

i love you,

i hope thats still enough.